The holidays have been rough. I haven't been paying as much attention to my nutrition as I should, and I also missed a few gym sessions due to all the holiday preparations. I am struggling to get back on track. The scale is up, I feel fluffy and bloated, and disappointed in myself. However, if I let myself focus on those feelings, it will only hinder my progress. So instead, I am going to focus on the positives.
I accomplished a major non scale victory the other day. For the first time ever in my life, I actually enjoyed shopping. I ordered a retro rockabilly top from Torrid (size 1), and when it came in, I had the strange urge to go shopping for shoes and pants to match. Crazy for me right? If you've read my blog from the beginning (I don't know if anyone actually reads this blog haha), then you know how much I hate shopping. It used to be a crippling experience for me and usually left me in tears. For the first time ever, I was able to go into a store and buy something off the rack in the women's department, not the plus size department. The pants I found are a size large. I can't even tell you the last time I fit into a size large.
In addition to that, I actually bought a pair of red high heels to wear with it. The last time I wore high heels was at my wedding almost 10 years ago. I have never been a girly girl and have never wanted to dress up or accessorize, but all that is changing. For the first time ever, I feel like I can wear cute things and look good in them, and I am enjoying this by attempting to improve my girling abilities, so I also bought some cute bandannas to put in my hair. What's even better is that I actually enjoyed it. I have never enjoyed these types of things before. I feel like I am turning into a whole new person on the inside as well as the outside.
I accomplished a major non scale victory the other day. For the first time ever in my life, I actually enjoyed shopping. I ordered a retro rockabilly top from Torrid (size 1), and when it came in, I had the strange urge to go shopping for shoes and pants to match. Crazy for me right? If you've read my blog from the beginning (I don't know if anyone actually reads this blog haha), then you know how much I hate shopping. It used to be a crippling experience for me and usually left me in tears. For the first time ever, I was able to go into a store and buy something off the rack in the women's department, not the plus size department. The pants I found are a size large. I can't even tell you the last time I fit into a size large.
In addition to that, I actually bought a pair of red high heels to wear with it. The last time I wore high heels was at my wedding almost 10 years ago. I have never been a girly girl and have never wanted to dress up or accessorize, but all that is changing. For the first time ever, I feel like I can wear cute things and look good in them, and I am enjoying this by attempting to improve my girling abilities, so I also bought some cute bandannas to put in my hair. What's even better is that I actually enjoyed it. I have never enjoyed these types of things before. I feel like I am turning into a whole new person on the inside as well as the outside.
Just out of curiosity, I pulled out one of the two pairs of shorts that I wore when I was at my largest and compared them to this new pair of pants. I am amazed at the difference. These shorts were tight on me in the summer of 2014. I pretty much lived in them because nothing else fit. I am so glad that I will never be that big again. I am never going back to who I was, and I've got a hell of a long way to go until where I want to be. I will get there.