Monday morning I woke up as sick as a dog. I was nauseated and bloated. I felt like all that food was still hanging around in my stomach. I was so disgusted by the mere thought of food that I skipped breakfast. I took a couple of gas-X and hoped for the best. By lunchtime, I was feeling marginally better, so I ran down to our local health food store and got a Quest protein bar for lunch, just to get my metabolism going. I still felt pretty gross about the thought of eating anything. Eventually, the horrible feeling passed, but all I could think about was how I did this to myself. No matter how delicious that food had been, it wasn't worth the horrible way that it made me feel. I had a pretty good idea that it would make me feel bad in advance; I just had no idea how very bad it would make me feel.
In addition to feeling bad, according to the scale, I had gained back 4 lbs! That's two weeks worth of weight that was supposed to be gone forever. I was so ashamed of myself. I tried really hard to get back on plan, but it was hard because I was having cravings for more unhealthy food and Monday was a long day for me, with my oldest daughter's away soccer game and me needing to stay at school and grade papers. I didn't leave school until 8:30 that night. Every morning, I stepped on the scale praying that some of the gained weight would come off, but it was an incredibly slow process. I felt sure that I had ruined any chance of weight loss this week. On Friday, I weighed in at still .6 lbs over my last recorded weight. I was even more sure week 9 was going to have to go down as a gain.
I remembered that some of the ladies on the THM facebook group had said that when they cheated, drinking Good Girl Moonshine (GGMS) helped to get them back on track. A lot of times what we gain from just one cheat meal isn't so much actual weight and is more bloating and fluid retention, and GGMS helps with that. I fixed myself up a quart of Raspberry Zinger GGMS to take to work with me Friday. If you are a THMer and haven't tried the Raspberry Zinger GGMS, you are definitely missing out. It is delicious. I sipped on it all morning, hoping and praying that it would help.
Yesterday, I got up and stepped on the scale. I was almost afraid to look to see what it would say, but I was pleasantly and unexpectedly surprised!
Week 9 - 289 lbs (-2lbs, -39.4 lbs total)
I couldn't believe that I had actually lost 2 lbs despite everything and despite the fact that all week long it had looked as though I had gained a ton. It is amazing what GGMS can do to flush the lingering effects of a cheat meal from one's body. I really need to go back to drinking it every day. It doesn't take much time to make, and I could definitely do make ahead drinks the night before.
Here are some other victories from yesterday. I had a conference to attend, but as I mentioned last week, all my clothes are falling off of me. I found some jean capris that were a size 22 in my closet. The last time I tried to put on a 22 a couple of weeks ago, it wouldn't zip or button. These pants fit me perfectly! I had no trouble zipping or buttoning them at all! What's even better than that is that I reached in the pocket and found a receipt that I had probably forgotten to take out of them the last time I wore them. It was dated early 2011! I haven't fit into these pants in 4 years. I think that is pretty amazing!
I also snapped a selfie because I noticed as I was getting ready that I could actually see my jawline and that I actually had a shadow on my neck! This made me so incredibly happy.